worthless.

I could not even begin to describe how much i dislike coffee..and its associates..

My day is practically ruined,although it's just 9.40 in the morning..it's all because of the aromatic coffee smell,which i hated the most,that woken me up this morning..why do i have to wake up to the smell i've been always avoiding the most and thanks to it,a nice stressful headache..

Also because of this,my head's practically in the cloud during the class today..

I officially declare coffee as my most hated nemesis as of today..

It's not that i wanted to hate coffee,but coffee makes my head ache..

and another thing that worsen my headache-the smell of ointment which much to my surprise,girls like to use the most;"minyak cap kapak"..

That's all my complaints of the day..

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i loved you too

So many thoughts,
I don't know where to begin,
I'll start from my heart,
and what I feel within.

I still have feelings,
which haven't changed,
because when you left me
my life was re-arranged.

I used to cry
so many times a day,
but lately those tears
have been fading away.

I am hoping that
my brighter day soon will come,
and maybe, just maybe,
I'll find that special someone.

Yes, it's been hard,
but I'm getting back my life,
I've even managed
to put away the knife.

I will find someone
who's right for me,
who loves me
and lets me be all I can be.

Yet the thought of you and her,
is tearing me apart,
because you will always have a special place
in my broken heart.

Do I still love you?
Yes, I do,
but another part of me
is getting over you.

I never thought I would say this,
but I simply have to confess,
with each and every day that goes by,
I love you less and less.

I just wanted to be with you,
but now you're gone,
and the time has come
for me to move on.

You meant so much to me,
in fact, you still do,
from the bottom of my heart,
I loved you too.

credit: this is NOT mine..just sharing it for fun...

sweet memories..

i'm going back home tomorrow..miss my cute niece and nephew already..afterall, i did stay here for about a month..a big accomplishment for myself, considering how i hated that very idea in the beginning..and still hated it a little halfway through...but, i really am going to miss them..*mish u cute "little devils"..^^

i'm listening to u-kiss' new single, someday..but somehow i couldn't recognize their voices apart from kevin and soohyun..where's eli's awesome rap??

that's all...

already 27th Ramadhan..keep up ur ibadah everybody..:)

!!!!!

I'M JUST EXTREMELY SAD!!!!!!

i "was" unhappy

back again!!

my last post was totally resulted from my infamous "occasional" mood-swing..

there's only about a week left for Ramadhan..time really does fly..i feel like just yesterday we started fasting...i hate traffics during weekends..shopping malls are really packed with people who wanted to shop for this upcoming 'raya'...i'm halfway done with my shopping, considering that i haven't bought any 'baju raya' yet..just pairs of shoes and handbag (sponsored by my 'along'^^thank you my dear brother!)...starting from last year, i think i've lost the 'raya' spirit..i don't really care much about 'raya' preparation and certainly i'm not in the 'right' mood to celebrate it (well, i guess that could also be blamed on another mood-swing)...the one thing i care about is, all my family members would gather together and feeling happy with each other presence...and of course, i care about 'duit raya',lol..

and for those who might be reading this, i wanted to suggest a novel for your reading pleasure...i'm not sure if it could benefit you or not, but i think it's really worthy to read...it's not the newest thing in the market, and i know i'm probably a year late to join in the excitement, but i've been busy (being busy is always the best excuse:P)...the title of this much anticipated novel, at least by me, is "The Confession",by John Grisham...if you're familiar with this man's work, you probably already have a clue what this novel is all about..and no, it's not refering to a ROMANTIC confession...no sweet love story whatsoever...and yes, the story has a bloody ending which i don't mean it literally...you might shed a tear or two, when you're around page 333, but it really depends on people...

i'm sleepy...i can't really connect my words anymore..my thoughts' already in the clouds..

that's all...

happy fasting!!

issues!!!

i'm practically torturing myself by remaining here...just mentally though..i'm so desperate to go home sometimes, but i just can't make myself to do it...i can't really say that i hate kids, but i can't also say that i like them...they're really tiring..well, not all the time though...they're lots of cute at times, but when they behave like kids, the tantrums, the ignorance, the crying, i just can't seem to adapt to them yet...

maybe i'll regret about writing this later..but for the time being, this feels partially right...

i've been watching kame's drama again..the old ones.."Tatta hitotsu no koi"..great story, for me..guess i like that kind of love story, kinda angsty but ended happily...:)

am looking forward to his new drama, forgot the title but it's an adaptation from a manga, if i'm not mistaken...just like 'yamanade'...btw, i think he's getting thinner again...and what's up with kat-tun's songs these days...so not kat-tun~ish...well, i can't say that i don't like that kinds of songs...i love them actually, just not like the usual kat-tun's gigs...and the other 4 members, exclude kame, got more singing time on-stage..usually aka-kame dominate most of their performances...i guess it's a good thing though..

ok, i'm surprised that kat-tun came out in my post..blame it on impulsive writing...:P

that's all...

p/s:check out katy perry's e.t's mv..creepy stuff...lol (can't i be more random???^^)

my Ramadhan's sched

i'm staying at my brother's place right now..he asked me to coz' he'll be busy with his posting in IJN this Ramadhan, so with me here i could at least accompany my sister-in-law and take care of my niece and nephew...well, they won't be here during the day anyway, since my niece has her Smart-reader class and my nephew will be sent to the Taska, and of course my sister-in-law would be out working..so, it'll be just me in this house...i thought that i didn't have anything to do when i was at home, but staying here has made me realize that at least i've got my parents at home...here, i'll be alone...

enough with that..Ramadhan has come again...Alhamdulillah..i hope to get the best out of it this year..i went to the Bazaar Ramadhan with my sis-in-law this evening..there's tons of people and the traffic was so bad...i'm not sure where exactly is the place, but it's nearby a stadium,here in Cheras...i seriously don't want to go there again...right now, i'm not in the mood for food..so when i was there, i couldn't find a single food that attracted me...they all look the same to me..

i'm tired already and it's really cold tonight..so, that's all...

just another entry

i have this unsettling feelings for the last two days, and it doesn't cease yet...it's just one of the case where a very tiny matter matters...it's really unsettling...everything i do, i feel like there's a huge solid rock that rests on my shoulder...i wonder if i did something wrong...do i feel like this because i did wrong with someone somewhere??or is there someone cursing me because of something i did??i can't think of anything i've done wrong...well, there's always my brother who i almost frequently kick/punch...i doubt he'd curse me behind my back...he'd throw it right on my face usually....and, i kick/punch him out of love...:P...then, there's the friends who i almost forget their existence...but, i think so do they....there's also the friend who i actually met coincidentally but i foolishly didn't bother to even say "hi"...but, the big BUT here, the friend is a guy..so, it's not really wrong for me not to approach him...but, another big BUT, i happened to say more than "hi" to another friend, who is also a guy, who i coincidentally met at that exact particular time...well, these are among many other things....there's no point of writing them down, which i've just realised...therefore, i wonder if this "unsettling" feeling is actually my defense mechanism that prevent me from feeling "guilty"...and i certainly didn't do anything worth of feeling guilty for...

that's all...

eat your food!!

what's the best way of staying skinny???

1.eat nothing, drinks plain water only.

2.eat anything but carbs.

3.eat proteins only.

4.eat fruits only.

5.eat low-calories food.

6.eat once a day.

7.eat at anytime except night-time.

all listed above are just almost IMPOSSIBLE for me...you see,when we're staying at home, it's unavoidable to eat our mums' cooking...rather it's rude if we don't eat them...my mother once said to me that she didn't want to cook because no one wanted to eat her cooking...that 'no one' actually was referring to ME....it's not that i didn't want to eat, but sometimes i just don't feel like eating..there were quite a few times when i thought having to eat is such a suffering...there were days when i had to force myself to eat as i've started to feel light-headed and couldn't quite walked in a straight line....and also there were days when i completely forgot to eat....often when the night came i wondered why did i feel dizzy, it was then i remembered that i hadn't eaten anything for the rest of the day....but during those times, i often reminded myself that having able to eat is a blessing...i reminded myself to think about those disabled and really old people who have lost their blessings to devour all those yummy food...i've got a few trauma regarding food...and till today there's certain food that i just couldn't bear to eat...i'm scared to eat it, to be exact...there's a few times when i upset my stomach and gotten a high fever along with it....it was terrible....and so, after these episodes i'll be watching my meals more carefully...to be honest, i'm really fussy when it comes to food...well, i lied...i'm fussy with almost anything...lol...

however,there were also days when i feel like stuffing my tummy with every food i could get my hands on..i would eat anything almost non-stop...rice, ice cream, fruits, bread, cakes; i would feel like i could stuff them all and never feel full...there were also days when i could eat very excessively eventhough i obviously had enough....that usually happened when i went to eat with my friends...we would order a lot of things and then, they would just stop eating, leaving a big portion behind...i would be the honorable 'trashcan' each time...though sometimes i hate eating, i hate leaving food uneaten even more...especially when i knew that i had to pay for it...

i wanted to write more but i've just realised that it's already past 1 a.m. and i haven't gotten my evening bath yet...well, not exactly evening, considering that it's already after midnight...and,my stomach's kind of growling at the moment...apparently i have forgotten about my dinner...i fed my cat, but i forgot to feed myself...

that's all....

book report!!

i've finished reading "Under the Dome"!!!! *clap*clap

the first 200 pages was a bit uninteresting, but the rest 800++ pages were real page-turners....lots of people died, which answered my expectation..well, there's a lot of ways of dying as i learnt from the story...the people there were either murdered, commited suicides (which, fyi, some had drug overdose, some had brain splattered all over the place,etc), freak accidents, burnt in wild fire, died due to absence of oxygen or extreme heat...actually,it's kind of exaggerated to say that "lots of people died"...in fact, almost all died, except for the main characters and their sidekicks...it's a really cheerful story right???

but,nevertheless, it's a good reading material...i'm going to start on the new books i've just bought...not Stephen Kings'...i figured his new book has to wait since i've found another must-read book...not going to mention the title till i've finished reading, that, if i have time and mood, and not stuck to this addictive beloved laptop of mine...

i've watched Harry Potter...love it...although many interesting scenes that happened in the book are not visualised in the movie...the Snape's part was just the BEST...love that guy...ohh, and i still love Sirius too...too bad both guys' dead...:(

a few freaky thoughts hit me as i watched the movie, "Voldemort's eyes' color is pretty..."

and "Snape's hair look really good.." and "Ginny's still not pretty...."

i really shouldn't focus on those kinds of things, but i did...

*forgive my rambling

that's all...

i've got babies

my kitty has given birth at last...yay..after suffering for a few weeks watching her carrying that huge belly(it is I who suffer, not her):P

she got 4 cute kittens...and i've started to wonder if ever the kittens survived, what am i supposed to do with them...it's not like my house is an animal shelter..that's a pretty harsh thing to say, i admit...but, kittens, just like babies, are pretty hard to handle, right???i love to watch them, taking care of them??i think i may need a little help...though i'm their unofficially fairy godmother...lol

i think an army of mosquitoes just attacked me last night....really hate those tiny blood-suckers...they're not even vampires...why the hell should they take so much blood from me??

okay, whatever...i'm just raving...

that's all^^

my cat's sick hobby

my cat caught another little bird again today...i was so shocked when i discovered her playing with the dying bird..she was acting all innocent while the bird, sadly to say was hardly breathing...i was trying to get her away from it, but she stubbornly tried to get to the bird...actually, i was quite afraid to hold the bird, it didn't move at all, but i could see the heart's still beating...

then, after putting away the very naughty cat of mine, i gathered my courage and lifted it up...i put it on a piece of tissue paper and held it gently on my palm...i asked my mother what should i do with the bird, well, it's not waking up and i was afraid that if i put it somewhere, the cat would found it...my mother was not good in handling this kind of thing and so she told me to wait until my little brother came back home...he had an experience in dealing with this since my naughty cat had actually pulled the same stunt the day before...but, luckily my brother said that the bird survived as he found it quite early...and so i put the bird far across the street...when my brother got back, my mother told him about it...unfortunately he said that the bird had perished...poor little bird...

i know that my cat doesn't actually eat birds, she only wanted to make them her toys...i seriously feels that she played too much... you see, she is pregnant and it really makes me wonder how in the world did she manage to catch a bird with her swollen belly...and it's not like there's no other things that she could use to play with...well, i guess there's nothing much i can do..it is her nature to catch the bird and although people keeps saying that cats are clever and kind of have feelings, i can't oppose her animal instinct...i just hope she wouldn't catch any birds again...better to keep her occupied than having her running around and messing with other beings, in this case, birds...

that's all i wanted to write about...and please keep in mind that "she" here refers to my current little "catlady"..she loves to play and EAT...well, she's pregnant anyway, so i have to bear with her big appetite...

-finish-

Misery time!!!

why do girls tend to worry about their weight?

i don't really have an answer to that question..and besides i'm one of the girls who keeps worrying about her weight every single day..some might say that it's pathetic and insulting...but seriously, don't say that when you already have a nice figure, figuratively speaking...

well, i do feel pathetic sometimes..but i can't help it...one, because i did have put on weight...and two, because i really hate the fact that i've put on weight..and worst of all, three, because "mak cik2" keep saying that i've gotten a bit chubbier...."a bit"????try "a lot"!!!!

yes, i'm just another typical girl who is obsessed with her body...thank you for judging me...

ahh..actually i wanted to write about a novel i've read quite a long time ago...it's quite an old novel published in 1987 written by my favourite author, Stephen King...just Google him if you don't know...the title of the novel is "Misery" and believe me, Misery can really make you miserable...the story is about a famous author named Paul Sheldon (he has nothing to do with the writer, Sidney Sheldon btw), who had written a series of Misery's novel and finally decided to put an end to it by killing the main character 'Misery' and thus wrapped up the whole chronicle....and so his misery started when he had a car accident as he finished writing his new book...he was rescued by a woman, Annnie Wilkes who was apparently his 'number one fan'...Annie brought Paul to her house, nursed him there and kept telling him that she couldn't get him to the hospital or got in contact with the outside world due to the heavy snow...but times passed by, and Paul had came to know that she actually did not have any intention of letting him go...and thus after Annie read the last novel of Misery's series, she couldn't accept that Paul killed her favourite character..she demanded for Misery to be undead...she started to show her true colours, and Paul, having no other choice, started to write another Misery's series....but as time went by, Annie's mood swings and her vicious personality were getting worse...since Paul was badly injured in the previous accident, he couldn't even moved by himself as both his legs were broken...but, as Paul was getting better, and the Misery's series was almost finished, Annie, in one of her mood swings, decided to keep Paul there a little bit longer...she eventually broke Paul's legs again..well, there were other brutal actions done by her...and i was seriously traumatised by the actions, so don't get me started on that..so, to keep this story short, Annie was killed by Paul in the end in a some-what bloody strong woman-weak man fight....Paul was still in his wheelchair when he had the fight with Annie...

that was a kind of awfully long synopsis of the novel...pardon my excitement...there is actually no significant lesson that we can learn from the novel...but i did get one thing...the horror of the story...:P

lesson no. 1: don't drive in snow storm..

lesson no. 2: don't go to the end of the world alone...

lesson no. 3: learn how to differentiate between "number-one-fan" and "crazy-psychopath-fan"...

lesson no. 4: i can't think of any...:P

fun fact: there was a drug given to Paul by Annie which named Novril...well, there is no such drug named Novril..it was just a fictional drug created by Stephen King, which supposedly acted like Codeine(for example)...i was cheated by it at first..i thought the drug really existed in real life..^^

secondly, there were quite a bit differences of facts in the novel and the adaptation(film)...i personally thought the novel was much much more awesome than the movie...

thirdly, i don't think anyone interested in reading this novel..i haven't met a single breathing, living soul that say Stephen King is one of her favourite authors...and there were hardly any that actually read his books...well, it's among my friends though...

fourthly, it's quite an advantage, because nobody requesting to borrow my novels..and thus, i get to keep them just in the state that i wanted....clean, no wrinkles, no chocolate or other unidentified smudges, whatsoever....

fifthly, it kinds of make me sad though sometimes...why people don't want to borrow my books...:(

lastly, i'll read better books in the future...not just fictional stuff...

happy reading!!

i got it from Sarah is not Sarcastic

ble sy da xde keje...bwt bende tagged2 ni best la jgk...haha

1) Kenapa online hari-hari, xde kerjakah???
= sy pon terfikir bende yg same..kenapela sy on9 hari2????dan jwpnnye,,,ye,mmg sy xde keje...
2) Apakah web-web yang telah anda sign up dekat internet ni??(Kalo boleh, from earliest to latest)
= friendster, myspace, facebook, bloggers(blogspot, lj, wordpress), twitter, formspring, lots of fansites/forums
3) Apakah medium yang anda gunakan untuk online?
= laptop kesayangan sy
4) Anda x boringkah online?
= terlebih bosan da..
5) Aktiviti harian??
= on9 n main kejar2 ngn kucing kesayangan
6) Apa yang menggangu fikiran anda sekarang?
= my weight
7) Adakah anda fikir survey ini dalam bahasa inggeris pada awalnya??
= mungkin
8) Anda rasa penguasaan bahasa Inggeris anda cukup untuk menjawab survey ini dalam bahasa Inggeris???
= absolutely..haha
9) Apa pendapat awak pasal penyekatan kerajaan terhadap beberapa web-web yang menjadi isu sekarang ni??
= sy xkesah sgt asalkan xmengganggu hidup sy...xD
10) Adakah anda pandai memasak??
= ya dan tidak
11) Kali terakhir anda berbelanja besar?? Untuk apa??
= bulan lepas.beli hadiah birthday utk ayah, kakak dan adik2 sy
12) Things u are looking forward to??
= sy menanti hari esok
13) Things u wanna buy right now??
= kasut yg sy jumpe kt parkson hari tu...dan external hd, sbb yg satu tu da penoh...dan buku2 yg sy da list down...
14) Things u wanna eat right now??
= kek coklat yg ade kt dlm peti sejuk kt dapur...
15) Short-term planning?? why??
= turunkn berat...sebab sy seorg perempuan...:P
16) Status??why??
= single...(agak sensitif soalan ini...)..so "no comment"
17) If u can have a pet, what will it be??
= da ade pon...
18) U get one wish, what will it be??
= saye bg dkt parents sy... so, tanyela dorg
19) U need money, mom or dad??
= ayah kot...tp mintak dr mak lg senang:P
20) If u could have another sibling, what would it be??
= terima kasih jela...adik-beradik sy da ckp da...tp if u insist, anything but a little sister...really hate the thought of having one laaa...
21) Any plannings??
= nk g crk cite johnny depp...da ter"obsesss" balek lepas tgk cite "sleepy hollow"(cte yg sy ske tgk wktu kecik dlu)...it's really legen....wait for it...dary!!
22) U get a second wish. What is your command??
= sy bg kt adek2 sy
23) Last question!! what song do u like??(a song from a local singer)

"bencinta", faizal tahir...sy mmg ske dy:)

D-PLAN

i went to kuala terengganu a week before i finished my last block for my uneventful first year...it was a family vacation, an 'extended family' vacation to be exact...i've been to k.t. before but i think there has been many changes since the last time i went there...the one and only thing that made me excited about this vacation was that we stayed at hotel near to the sea...yay, 'mandi laut' time...it's been a very long time since i last went to the sea and played in it??though i only managed to 'mandi laut' once during my three days, two nights stay, it was very meaningful...i love the waves, the salty water (okay, no, i'm not really fond of the salty seawater because it kept getting into my eyes and it really hurt a lot as i wore my contact lens), the wind, the sand...it's getting melodramatic, but to keep things short, i would love to play again like that, soon if possible...^^

okay, now i've foolishly forgotten what i wanted to write in the first place...well, whatever...

i've got 3-months off...and....

i plan to do major body slimming......yeah right...that's just a bad joke...i love food too much that it would be absurd to leave them alone....i keep food close to my heart.....and my mouth...

no, i've planned to DOWNLOAD....yeah, i've been crazy over the unfinished kamen rider series i happen to have...now, i've finished with W...let's proceed with KIVA....kamen rider, go, go.....i know they were old series but i haven't watched their complete series yet...that's a good enough reason to keep my plan going...owh, and i'm frustrated that i can't download RYUKI because the files are MU...yep, ryuki is one of the oldest kamen rider series...i've watched it once when i was really young?, but i don't think i've watched the ending yet...i don't want to watch the english version of ryuki...i love ryuki, well not really ryuki, i love KNIGHT actually...the always sad and cold + cute KNIGHT....the latest kamen rider i know is 000 or something like that, not too sure as i haven't really watch it...and another thing is, don't watch DECADE.....it's not like the series isn't good or anything, it's just that i don't like the main actor...and the storyline of course...and the heroine's face is so MATSUJUN....and i don't mean it literally....i have a suspicion that maybe she is matsujun's sister...well, it's just too gross to watch her because it feels like i'm watching matsujun in skirts and skinnies....euuwwww...so, don't watch it....DEN-O is quite good....good visual and interesting storyline....and KABUTO is also quite worth to check out...

i could talk about my 'masked men and ridiculous monsters' obsession all day long, but i figured not really everyone can accept this kind of interest...yes, i'm quite an otaku with anime...maybe about 0.02%???wow, that's statistically significant...^^

oh, i also plan to study during this holiday...if we count the holiday period by weeks, it weirdly seems short...so, i'm hoping to do some serious studying, if God may...

okay, that's all....

bla bla bla

it's been a long time....there's nothing really to say....it's almost 5 a.m. and i still have some 'unfinished' business...no dirty thoughts,etc....okay, i lied....actually i'm up and still running(not really literally running, coz' i'm lying on my bed right now), is because i'm at my home sweet home,with nothing better to do....i got on bus at 8.40 a.m. on thursday,and reached the destination about 5 and a half hour later....i didn't get much sleep the night before + the exams just ended, so i was really groggy when i had to wake up at 6a.m. the following morning, one of my friend's ticket was at 8....so once i seated myself on the bus, and it moved 5 minutes later, i was sound asleep....eventhough the bus felt like a roller-coaster, i couldn't get myself to open my eyes and complaint...i was just toooooo tired and exhausted....though the bus stopped twice at the terminals, i just couldn't care less....people got on and off, some walked past my seat and hit me accidentally, i didn't care....i just need to sleep...it was a disaster when i woke up about 10 minutes before the bus reached my station...my 'tudung' was like a ragged cloth...just kidding...okay, so the point of the story is, nothing really....i just wanted to write something...

i'm listening to big bang's song repeatedly coz' i'm too lazy to change the player...

now, i'm about 66.6% convinced that i'm so stupid...not that i'm literally stupid....it's just that the line goes, "i'm so stupid, i'm so stupid, i'm so stupid......in love".....and some lines go this way,"naega michyeogayo(i'm going crazy) x1000000" repeatedly, "liar x1000000" + another x10000000 "stupid liar"......

now, i really wondered what this post is all about....i'm all over the place...my stomach's hurting again...i might have caught gastricitis again(do people "caught" gastricitis???)...well, in short, i'm getting sleepy, but not sleepy enough to sleep...let's just wait for Subuh...

i already have a morning plan for tomorrow...to go see my sister...i could sleep in the car then....yesss, i have a disease...not std....just that i can fall asleep very easily once the car starts moving....though the destination is in 5 minutes reach....exaggerating much????

whatever...now this post is officially over.....

G.O.O.D Friends

a friend of mine told me about a friend of hers whose friend was told by a friend of hers about the story of her friend who is betrayed by her own friends..

it's kinda complicated to explain, but believe me, it's harder to say it in malay...

okay, so here's the story:

that friend had a kind of weird habit towards a certain creatures of god...

so she always do all kind of the impossible-made-possible things for them and told her GOOD friends about it...

well, the reactions weren't so good, but she thought that it was okay because they're her GOOD friends...

but one unfortunate day, she learnt the truth about her GOOD friends...

they're actually just a bunch of fool, loose-mouth bitches that disguised themselves as pretty, innocent human beings...

you know what people always say, "don't judge a book by its cover"...

and that day, that friend knew that those old people who kept saying that ancient line were actually true....

the mistake those friends of hers made was just a simple one, but what made that friend so angry and upset was that they were talking about her behind her back...and she knew about it....

actually, she was usually okay with it, but that was because she did not know people were talking about her behind her back...

but those narrow-minded friends of hers had actually crossed the line because what they said about her was made public by some ignorant fools....

well, they didn't really mention any names, but that friend knew so well that it was actually meant for her....

now, she knew that those GOOD friends who smiled, laughed and walked with her everyday were actually little backstabbers who were trying so hard all this time to pass off as sweet, innocent human beings...

if she didn't know any better, she would have thought that they were the kindest people she knew on this planet...

well, i'm not implying that she knew any from other planets...please don't get me wrong okay...

so, to cut it short, she did what she always did with situations as SOS as like this, she slept on her bed that night and forgot all about it...

but of course after she told it to her friend, who told her friend, who then told her friend.....and bla, bla, bla....do you really want me to repeat this???

and so here i am, making it public, well, i'm not mentioning any names, so it's okay i guess....

please pardon me for my usage of certain words...

i'm just trying to be realistic....lol

words are only words....

people can't die just because a few words....

because some words are just meant to be forgotten...

just move on and live....

forgive and forget....

a really boring story written by me who's almost bored herself to death, fortunately she's saved by this so-called boring post...