eat your food!!

what's the best way of staying skinny???

1.eat nothing, drinks plain water only.

2.eat anything but carbs.

3.eat proteins only.

4.eat fruits only.

5.eat low-calories food.

6.eat once a day.

7.eat at anytime except night-time.

all listed above are just almost IMPOSSIBLE for me...you see,when we're staying at home, it's unavoidable to eat our mums' cooking...rather it's rude if we don't eat them...my mother once said to me that she didn't want to cook because no one wanted to eat her cooking...that 'no one' actually was referring to ME....it's not that i didn't want to eat, but sometimes i just don't feel like eating..there were quite a few times when i thought having to eat is such a suffering...there were days when i had to force myself to eat as i've started to feel light-headed and couldn't quite walked in a straight line....and also there were days when i completely forgot to eat....often when the night came i wondered why did i feel dizzy, it was then i remembered that i hadn't eaten anything for the rest of the day....but during those times, i often reminded myself that having able to eat is a blessing...i reminded myself to think about those disabled and really old people who have lost their blessings to devour all those yummy food...i've got a few trauma regarding food...and till today there's certain food that i just couldn't bear to eat...i'm scared to eat it, to be exact...there's a few times when i upset my stomach and gotten a high fever along with it....it was terrible....and so, after these episodes i'll be watching my meals more carefully...to be honest, i'm really fussy when it comes to food...well, i lied...i'm fussy with almost anything...lol...

however,there were also days when i feel like stuffing my tummy with every food i could get my hands on..i would eat anything almost non-stop...rice, ice cream, fruits, bread, cakes; i would feel like i could stuff them all and never feel full...there were also days when i could eat very excessively eventhough i obviously had enough....that usually happened when i went to eat with my friends...we would order a lot of things and then, they would just stop eating, leaving a big portion behind...i would be the honorable 'trashcan' each time...though sometimes i hate eating, i hate leaving food uneaten even more...especially when i knew that i had to pay for it...

i wanted to write more but i've just realised that it's already past 1 a.m. and i haven't gotten my evening bath yet...well, not exactly evening, considering that it's already after midnight...and,my stomach's kind of growling at the moment...apparently i have forgotten about my dinner...i fed my cat, but i forgot to feed myself...

that's all....

book report!!

i've finished reading "Under the Dome"!!!! *clap*clap

the first 200 pages was a bit uninteresting, but the rest 800++ pages were real page-turners....lots of people died, which answered my expectation..well, there's a lot of ways of dying as i learnt from the story...the people there were either murdered, commited suicides (which, fyi, some had drug overdose, some had brain splattered all over the place,etc), freak accidents, burnt in wild fire, died due to absence of oxygen or extreme heat...actually,it's kind of exaggerated to say that "lots of people died"...in fact, almost all died, except for the main characters and their sidekicks...it's a really cheerful story right???

but,nevertheless, it's a good reading material...i'm going to start on the new books i've just bought...not Stephen Kings'...i figured his new book has to wait since i've found another must-read book...not going to mention the title till i've finished reading, that, if i have time and mood, and not stuck to this addictive beloved laptop of mine...

i've watched Harry Potter...love it...although many interesting scenes that happened in the book are not visualised in the movie...the Snape's part was just the BEST...love that guy...ohh, and i still love Sirius too...too bad both guys' dead...:(

a few freaky thoughts hit me as i watched the movie, "Voldemort's eyes' color is pretty..."

and "Snape's hair look really good.." and "Ginny's still not pretty...."

i really shouldn't focus on those kinds of things, but i did...

*forgive my rambling

that's all...

i've got babies

my kitty has given birth at last...yay..after suffering for a few weeks watching her carrying that huge belly(it is I who suffer, not her):P

she got 4 cute kittens...and i've started to wonder if ever the kittens survived, what am i supposed to do with them...it's not like my house is an animal shelter..that's a pretty harsh thing to say, i admit...but, kittens, just like babies, are pretty hard to handle, right???i love to watch them, taking care of them??i think i may need a little help...though i'm their unofficially fairy godmother...lol

i think an army of mosquitoes just attacked me last night....really hate those tiny blood-suckers...they're not even vampires...why the hell should they take so much blood from me??

okay, whatever...i'm just raving...

that's all^^

my cat's sick hobby

my cat caught another little bird again today...i was so shocked when i discovered her playing with the dying bird..she was acting all innocent while the bird, sadly to say was hardly breathing...i was trying to get her away from it, but she stubbornly tried to get to the bird...actually, i was quite afraid to hold the bird, it didn't move at all, but i could see the heart's still beating...

then, after putting away the very naughty cat of mine, i gathered my courage and lifted it up...i put it on a piece of tissue paper and held it gently on my palm...i asked my mother what should i do with the bird, well, it's not waking up and i was afraid that if i put it somewhere, the cat would found it...my mother was not good in handling this kind of thing and so she told me to wait until my little brother came back home...he had an experience in dealing with this since my naughty cat had actually pulled the same stunt the day before...but, luckily my brother said that the bird survived as he found it quite early...and so i put the bird far across the street...when my brother got back, my mother told him about it...unfortunately he said that the bird had perished...poor little bird...

i know that my cat doesn't actually eat birds, she only wanted to make them her toys...i seriously feels that she played too much... you see, she is pregnant and it really makes me wonder how in the world did she manage to catch a bird with her swollen belly...and it's not like there's no other things that she could use to play with...well, i guess there's nothing much i can do..it is her nature to catch the bird and although people keeps saying that cats are clever and kind of have feelings, i can't oppose her animal instinct...i just hope she wouldn't catch any birds again...better to keep her occupied than having her running around and messing with other beings, in this case, birds...

that's all i wanted to write about...and please keep in mind that "she" here refers to my current little "catlady"..she loves to play and EAT...well, she's pregnant anyway, so i have to bear with her big appetite...

-finish-

Misery time!!!

why do girls tend to worry about their weight?

i don't really have an answer to that question..and besides i'm one of the girls who keeps worrying about her weight every single day..some might say that it's pathetic and insulting...but seriously, don't say that when you already have a nice figure, figuratively speaking...

well, i do feel pathetic sometimes..but i can't help it...one, because i did have put on weight...and two, because i really hate the fact that i've put on weight..and worst of all, three, because "mak cik2" keep saying that i've gotten a bit chubbier...."a bit"????try "a lot"!!!!

yes, i'm just another typical girl who is obsessed with her body...thank you for judging me...

ahh..actually i wanted to write about a novel i've read quite a long time ago...it's quite an old novel published in 1987 written by my favourite author, Stephen King...just Google him if you don't know...the title of the novel is "Misery" and believe me, Misery can really make you miserable...the story is about a famous author named Paul Sheldon (he has nothing to do with the writer, Sidney Sheldon btw), who had written a series of Misery's novel and finally decided to put an end to it by killing the main character 'Misery' and thus wrapped up the whole chronicle....and so his misery started when he had a car accident as he finished writing his new book...he was rescued by a woman, Annnie Wilkes who was apparently his 'number one fan'...Annie brought Paul to her house, nursed him there and kept telling him that she couldn't get him to the hospital or got in contact with the outside world due to the heavy snow...but times passed by, and Paul had came to know that she actually did not have any intention of letting him go...and thus after Annie read the last novel of Misery's series, she couldn't accept that Paul killed her favourite character..she demanded for Misery to be undead...she started to show her true colours, and Paul, having no other choice, started to write another Misery's series....but as time went by, Annie's mood swings and her vicious personality were getting worse...since Paul was badly injured in the previous accident, he couldn't even moved by himself as both his legs were broken...but, as Paul was getting better, and the Misery's series was almost finished, Annie, in one of her mood swings, decided to keep Paul there a little bit longer...she eventually broke Paul's legs again..well, there were other brutal actions done by her...and i was seriously traumatised by the actions, so don't get me started on that..so, to keep this story short, Annie was killed by Paul in the end in a some-what bloody strong woman-weak man fight....Paul was still in his wheelchair when he had the fight with Annie...

that was a kind of awfully long synopsis of the novel...pardon my excitement...there is actually no significant lesson that we can learn from the novel...but i did get one thing...the horror of the story...:P

lesson no. 1: don't drive in snow storm..

lesson no. 2: don't go to the end of the world alone...

lesson no. 3: learn how to differentiate between "number-one-fan" and "crazy-psychopath-fan"...

lesson no. 4: i can't think of any...:P

fun fact: there was a drug given to Paul by Annie which named Novril...well, there is no such drug named Novril..it was just a fictional drug created by Stephen King, which supposedly acted like Codeine(for example)...i was cheated by it at first..i thought the drug really existed in real life..^^

secondly, there were quite a bit differences of facts in the novel and the adaptation(film)...i personally thought the novel was much much more awesome than the movie...

thirdly, i don't think anyone interested in reading this novel..i haven't met a single breathing, living soul that say Stephen King is one of her favourite authors...and there were hardly any that actually read his books...well, it's among my friends though...

fourthly, it's quite an advantage, because nobody requesting to borrow my novels..and thus, i get to keep them just in the state that i wanted....clean, no wrinkles, no chocolate or other unidentified smudges, whatsoever....

fifthly, it kinds of make me sad though sometimes...why people don't want to borrow my books...:(

lastly, i'll read better books in the future...not just fictional stuff...

happy reading!!

i got it from Sarah is not Sarcastic

ble sy da xde keje...bwt bende tagged2 ni best la jgk...haha

1) Kenapa online hari-hari, xde kerjakah???
= sy pon terfikir bende yg same..kenapela sy on9 hari2????dan jwpnnye,,,ye,mmg sy xde keje...
2) Apakah web-web yang telah anda sign up dekat internet ni??(Kalo boleh, from earliest to latest)
= friendster, myspace, facebook, bloggers(blogspot, lj, wordpress), twitter, formspring, lots of fansites/forums
3) Apakah medium yang anda gunakan untuk online?
= laptop kesayangan sy
4) Anda x boringkah online?
= terlebih bosan da..
5) Aktiviti harian??
= on9 n main kejar2 ngn kucing kesayangan
6) Apa yang menggangu fikiran anda sekarang?
= my weight
7) Adakah anda fikir survey ini dalam bahasa inggeris pada awalnya??
= mungkin
8) Anda rasa penguasaan bahasa Inggeris anda cukup untuk menjawab survey ini dalam bahasa Inggeris???
= absolutely..haha
9) Apa pendapat awak pasal penyekatan kerajaan terhadap beberapa web-web yang menjadi isu sekarang ni??
= sy xkesah sgt asalkan xmengganggu hidup sy...xD
10) Adakah anda pandai memasak??
= ya dan tidak
11) Kali terakhir anda berbelanja besar?? Untuk apa??
= bulan lepas.beli hadiah birthday utk ayah, kakak dan adik2 sy
12) Things u are looking forward to??
= sy menanti hari esok
13) Things u wanna buy right now??
= kasut yg sy jumpe kt parkson hari tu...dan external hd, sbb yg satu tu da penoh...dan buku2 yg sy da list down...
14) Things u wanna eat right now??
= kek coklat yg ade kt dlm peti sejuk kt dapur...
15) Short-term planning?? why??
= turunkn berat...sebab sy seorg perempuan...:P
16) Status??why??
= single...(agak sensitif soalan ini...)..so "no comment"
17) If u can have a pet, what will it be??
= da ade pon...
18) U get one wish, what will it be??
= saye bg dkt parents sy... so, tanyela dorg
19) U need money, mom or dad??
= ayah kot...tp mintak dr mak lg senang:P
20) If u could have another sibling, what would it be??
= terima kasih jela...adik-beradik sy da ckp da...tp if u insist, anything but a little sister...really hate the thought of having one laaa...
21) Any plannings??
= nk g crk cite johnny depp...da ter"obsesss" balek lepas tgk cite "sleepy hollow"(cte yg sy ske tgk wktu kecik dlu)...it's really legen....wait for it...dary!!
22) U get a second wish. What is your command??
= sy bg kt adek2 sy
23) Last question!! what song do u like??(a song from a local singer)

"bencinta", faizal tahir...sy mmg ske dy:)

D-PLAN

i went to kuala terengganu a week before i finished my last block for my uneventful first year...it was a family vacation, an 'extended family' vacation to be exact...i've been to k.t. before but i think there has been many changes since the last time i went there...the one and only thing that made me excited about this vacation was that we stayed at hotel near to the sea...yay, 'mandi laut' time...it's been a very long time since i last went to the sea and played in it??though i only managed to 'mandi laut' once during my three days, two nights stay, it was very meaningful...i love the waves, the salty water (okay, no, i'm not really fond of the salty seawater because it kept getting into my eyes and it really hurt a lot as i wore my contact lens), the wind, the sand...it's getting melodramatic, but to keep things short, i would love to play again like that, soon if possible...^^

okay, now i've foolishly forgotten what i wanted to write in the first place...well, whatever...

i've got 3-months off...and....

i plan to do major body slimming......yeah right...that's just a bad joke...i love food too much that it would be absurd to leave them alone....i keep food close to my heart.....and my mouth...

no, i've planned to DOWNLOAD....yeah, i've been crazy over the unfinished kamen rider series i happen to have...now, i've finished with W...let's proceed with KIVA....kamen rider, go, go.....i know they were old series but i haven't watched their complete series yet...that's a good enough reason to keep my plan going...owh, and i'm frustrated that i can't download RYUKI because the files are MU...yep, ryuki is one of the oldest kamen rider series...i've watched it once when i was really young?, but i don't think i've watched the ending yet...i don't want to watch the english version of ryuki...i love ryuki, well not really ryuki, i love KNIGHT actually...the always sad and cold + cute KNIGHT....the latest kamen rider i know is 000 or something like that, not too sure as i haven't really watch it...and another thing is, don't watch DECADE.....it's not like the series isn't good or anything, it's just that i don't like the main actor...and the storyline of course...and the heroine's face is so MATSUJUN....and i don't mean it literally....i have a suspicion that maybe she is matsujun's sister...well, it's just too gross to watch her because it feels like i'm watching matsujun in skirts and skinnies....euuwwww...so, don't watch it....DEN-O is quite good....good visual and interesting storyline....and KABUTO is also quite worth to check out...

i could talk about my 'masked men and ridiculous monsters' obsession all day long, but i figured not really everyone can accept this kind of interest...yes, i'm quite an otaku with anime...maybe about 0.02%???wow, that's statistically significant...^^

oh, i also plan to study during this holiday...if we count the holiday period by weeks, it weirdly seems short...so, i'm hoping to do some serious studying, if God may...

okay, that's all....