DOUSHITE????????

why am i here,,,in the middle of the night,,or u can call it "very early morning",,,
is because,,,,,

i can't sleep!!!!!!

so frustrating,,,
my eyelids feel heavy but i just can't get into sleep...

i went into bed quite early tonight,,,,because i don't want to wake up late tomorrow..
but no matter how i push my eyes closed,,,
tossed around for like,,100 times,,
i still can't sleep..

so i made up my mind to just stay awake and do something,,,
which explains how i got here....

i just want to tell what i feel right now,,,
i want to sleep,,,i want to sleep,,,
my roommate is now sleeping soundly,,,
she sleeps as soon as her head touches the pillow,,,
why can't i be like that????
why???doushite????

i also want to be hugged by him like that,,,hahaha
maybe then i can sleep,,,,
shuu,,,shuuu,,,,
that's quite perverted u know,,,,
lalalalala.....

WE FELL HEAD OVER HEELS 4 THESE GUYS

WARNING:THIS STORY MAY CONTAINED SOME 'EXTREME' & 'FANGIRLS-DROOLING' PARTS...

------>>>>>enjoy ur reading!!!!!

....one day,,,,me,,my friend^-^ and my friend*-*,,,,were chatting and 'lepak-lepak' at my friend^-^'s room....

..we were watching videos,,'kyaa'ing cute guys,,laughing while rolling2 on the floor,,when suddenly the following conversation occurred:

me:kyaaa!!!!so cute!!!!yatta!!!!

my friend*-*:hahahaha...*with approving look

my friend^-^:so cute!!!!kyaaa!!!!

then suddenly,,,

my friend*-*:between gd and daesung,,which one would u choose???

me-to-myself:yabai!!!how can i choose between those two???

my friend*-*:hehehehe...*squinting me an evil look

me:why should i choose one???

my friend^-^:she already chose top..so u should just choose one laa..

me:but i already chose!!!!i choose heechul*speaking confidently

my friend^-^:no,,,u should choose only one from big bang..

my friend*-*:yup,,yup,,*smiling ear to ear

me-to-myself:yabai!!!!!i really can't choose one now!!!!

me:arghh...i don't want to choose...i want both*smile*smile

my friend*-* & my friend^-^:....................................

before that,,,we were basically rolling on the floor laughing at the 'bakaness' and 'kawaiiness' of arashi in utaban...

then,,, my friend*-* started to play big bang videos...

my friend*-*:wanna see top kiss???

me:yadai!!!yadai!!!

my friend^-^:nak!!!nak!!!

..the video played...

me:kyaa!!!top's so smart!!!

my friend^-^:yup,,yup!!!!kya!!!

me:where's daesung n seungri????

my friend*-*:......................*too absorbed in 'top'

me:where's daesung n seungri?????*again

my friend*-*:they come out one by one..be patient laaa...*annoyed

me:oooo000ooo....*patient*patient

my friend*-*:hah..there's ur daesung...

me:kyaaaaa!!!!kawaii!!!!*beaming

..in another conversation:

my friend*-*:i like this song*play sunset glow's mv

me:i like it too!!!!best!!!

...watch it silently at first,,,
then,,,

my friend^-^:kyaa!!!daesung kawaii!!!!!

me:kyaaa!!!!daesung so cute!!!!*grinning ear to ear

my friend*-*:hahahaha....

me:waaaa!!!gd cute!!!!kyaaa!!!!

my friend*-*:this part is cuter when they performed it on stage...

me:do u have the mv???

my friend*-*:yes,,,,yes,,,

me:yatta!!!!

...the video played...

me,my friend*-* n my friend^-^:kyaaa!!!!kawaii!babo!!!

then all of a sudden,,,,,

my friend^-^:i want daesung laa....cute!!!

me-to-myself:whatthehell???*WARNING:blood pressure increasing

me:no way!!!!!muri des!!!!*shouting

my friend^-^:u already got gd...give daesung to me laa*smiling cutely

me:no!!!!!!my daesung!!!daesung's mine!!!!u can take gd,,,,but not daesung!!!!

my friend^-^:i don't want gd...i want daesung...he's cute!!!!

me:muri!!!muri!!!!take gd!!!!leave my daesung alone!!!

my friend*-*:hahahaha.....at last u choose daesung over gd...*wink*wink

me-to-myself:yabai!!!i really have chosen daesung over gd...woah..*sigh*sigh

me:.................*smile shyly

my friend^-^:..hehehehe...i'm just playing laa...i don't want ur daesung..

me-to-myself:fuhhh...lega...*wiping the sweat off my face

so i thought the story stopped there,,,

but then,,,today i read a comment on my blog post,,
it said,,,

my friend^-^:xnk la gd...tukar2...nk daesung bleh????

me-to-myself:huh????*WARNING:blood pressure n temperature rising

me:..xley jdk nih...just wait n see*strangling my 'teddy'

-the end-

note:this story above is 'absolutely fictional'...forgive me for any 'perv' or 'craziness'...

comments are most welcomed!!!!
...till' next time!!!!byebye!!!!
*waving like a 'miss world'

TODAY IN MY LIFE

.....just a brief one....

su text me earlier saying that 'maybe',,just 'maybe' that we would get our 'precious little allowance' soon...i already said 'maybe' right??
---->>>so don't get ur hope too high,,'coz it's just another 'maybe' for this semester...

..i got tons of assignments to be done by this week...well, 'tons' is a lil' bit exaggerating..did i spell it right??it's been so long since i wrote down that particular word...hahaha...we've already finished our 'english subject' term,,so please forgive me for any error i made in my writing...

..really don't have anything interesting happened today...just that when i woke up this morning i was kinda like a 'zombie'....good that i didn't get 'panda eyes' like seungri..hahaha...if i did, then i would be the female version of 'panda'...my eyes were just swollen a little...

..classes today were great..at least that's what i think...in biology class i was so damn sleepy..madam's voice was like some kind of 'lullaby' to me...lol...but,,,,i managed to stay awake though...'tough' job...then,in chemistry class i was not sleepy at all...a rather 'surprising' thing for me...and another 'surprise' is i thought that madam done a rather good job teaching us today...can't believe i'd say this, but madam can be fun sometimes...huhuhu

so,,i was like whining to my friends 'bout the 'transformer' thingy..hahaha...frankly speaking,,,i'm soooo,,,really,really want to watch it,,,ermm,,like now!!!hahaha...yeah,,yeah,,i know it's impossible,,i just wanted to state my feelings...hahaha...actually i can just watch it at my bro's house..i'm quite sure he has gotten hold of this new movie...urghhh,,,blame me for being such an 'impatient' being...

my mom called me just now....she's worried 'bout 'u-know-what' that has 'attacked' me..huhuhu...basically,it's the main thing we talked 'bout all along this week..my mom/dad would call me asking how i was doing,,,am i getting better,,,,do i need to go to the clinic,,,do my brother needs to come visit,,,my mom was sorry that she could not come to visit me this week..she's already got a full schedule this weekend...i told her that i'm cool 'bout it...huhuhu...so much 4 a mother's love...my mom said that b'coz of 'u-know-what',,i could no longer enter 'beauty contests'...hahaha..my mom always this 'funny+sarcastic'...then, she also said that b'coz of 'u-know-what',,my sister has become prettier than me...lol...i always thought my sister is so pretty...many would agree,,i believe...hahaha...and i always know that i'm not pretty at all...isk*isk

...see,,i'm whining again...ish,,ish,,ish...

p/s:---->>>to shikin~~~whatthehell????i'm soooo damn jealous!!!!!u get to watch 'transformers' first and then u're going to watch it again tomorrow?????...aish...why do some people can be soo lucky????

...i'm self-pitying...

...due to 'no connectivity',,,i only get to post this now---->>>>10.38p.m.

PLEASE READ MY 'SYOK SENDIRI'

~~~~~been tagged^-^
---->>>>i'm ohno's fan....lol

1. Kekasih saya adalah :...ermmm...heechul???^-^

2. Saya sedang mendengar :....big bang~last farewell..."i don't want to be without u girl..."

3. Mungkin saya patut:...habiskan makanan depan mata nih...bru 4,5 suap..but i'm full already....

4. Saya baru sudah :....tukar layout blog...done putting 'yunho,daesung n gd' pics...*satisfied*satisfied

5. Beza rakan, sahabat, kawan :....the spellings...

6. Saya tidak faham :..why i'm soooo obsessed with heechul...

7. Saya perlu mencari:....duet....nk bli cd anime...

8. Ayat terakhir yang dikatakan kepada saya :..."aku naik atas ar"--->>>su yg kate

9. Makna kehidupan:....L.O.V.E.....

10. Cinta itu adalah:...something that can make u go crazy n beyond boundaries...

11. Saya paling suka :...klu dpt jmpe heechul...n,,,sakit perut nih hilang....n,,,,red spots on my skin disappeared.....

12. Saya akan cuba :...find a really rich husband...then go to korea to find heechul...

13. Mengapa rakyat Malaysia suka menggunakan LAH di akhir ayat mereka :....think by yourself lah...

14. Telefon bimbit saya :tgh 'play' lagu dbsk~doushite.......(too long laaa)

15. Katil saya :...full of pink...'my teddy' tgh terbaring atas 'my blanket'....

16. Soalan yang bagi saya tidak perlu ditanya :....kenape heechul 2 cute sgt2???...or,,heechul 2 cute kan,kan???..duh...

17. Teknologi adalah:....a really wonderful thing...

18. Bagaimana saya boleh memasak masakan yang saya paling pandai masak :...sy tgk mak sy masak...n setelah my sister berleter nonstop kt sy suruh blaja m'masak....

19. Semalam :...i went to sleep at 5a.m.,,,,,,,chat ngn nanny~gado pasal heechul n hongki...

20. Hari ini :...rase cm nk g pasar malam...but 'my teddy,my bed n my pillow' are 'calling' me...

21. Malam ini saya akan :...try to sleep early as possible...try to not eating anything after having dinner...

22. Esok pula saya akan :...try to wake up early for biology class...

23. Saya betul2 inginkan:...to meet heechul n hug him...then kidnap him to a deserted island...

24. Badminton atau futsal :...love both...damn,,,i really need to start exercising...

25. Karaoke:.....daisuki!!!....always go with my sister...nk g ngn su n kina lak pasni...

26. Kereta :...pernah bwk 'kancil' n 'myv' jer....teringin nk drive sports car...a bugatti,,,or a porsche...

27. Bilik yang terang atau gelap :....now i prefer dark room...here is sooooo hot....

28. Makanan jepun adalah :...really different from ours...

29. Ayat terakhir yang nak anda katakan pada seseorang:...can i 'sepak' u????

30. Siapa yang anda tag :...anyone who are willing to do are most welcome....

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i really should learn to control my "jealousy"

p/s: kina,,,i'm really cool 'bout that heechul's pic on ur page..

mianhae..4 being 'oversensitive' before this...

L.O.V.E^-^

shuffle ur mp3 and answer these questions,,, and give some description soooo fun!!!!!

IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
-->>hUg~THSK
.......i'm such a grateful person..yippie!!!!

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
-->>sTep bY stEp~THSK
........it means i'm really careful 'bout my decisions??
or...i take my life easy..step..by..step..

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
-->>l0llip0P~BIG BANG
......i like him/her to always eat lollipop..kekeke
or...sweet like a lollipop???^-^

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
-->>bEauTifUl daYs~ARASHI
.......yay!!start of a new day...

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
-->>sUrviv0R~THSK
......i'll survive this life somehow..
or....i'll try very hard to live...

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
-->>lAst fArewEll~BIG BANG
......."i don't wanna be without u girl...."

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
-->>hi ya ya~DBSK
.....err,,,don't really understand this song...
.."always be happy together...saranghae...hi ya ya..."

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
-->>bUt i l0Ve u~BIG BANG
.....hmmm...no comment...
..yatta..*shy*shy

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
-->>liE~BIG BANG
......"love is pain"
..."i'm so sorry but i love u da geo jis mar"

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
-->>nOeraG0~SUPER JUNIOR
......it's u...
.."oh oh only 4 u, oh oh only 4 u"

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
-->>dOushitE kiMi wO suKi ni naTte shiMattaN daRou~THSK
.......why did i fall in love with u????
..don't know my life is this sad..pathetic???
.."koko ni iru to omotteta no ni...demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi"

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
-->>sTand By u~THSK
.....maybe a bodyguard???hahaha
..a loyal person most likely..
even now i'm loyal..to heechul..hik3

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
-->>kiSs tHe baBy sKy~THSK
....."baby sky.....with me,with me"

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
-->>sKy~THSK
......maybe they have really high hope for me..
..aishiteru yo!!!

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
-->>gEe~SNSD
..."listen boy..my 1st love story.."
....."gee gee gee gee baby baby baby"
---yess, heechul knows the dance..hahaha

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
-->>cAndy~BIG BANG
......eating candy n getting fat..
or....doing something interesting...

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
-->>hAru haRu~BIG BANG
....."oh girl..i cry, cry..you're my all..say goodbye,bye..oh my love don't lie,lie.."

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
-->>rIsinG sUn~THSK
.....good friends???

WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
-->>cHut cHa~SUPER JUNIOR T
......don't understand this song..uhuk3

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
-->>sOrry,soRry~SUPER JUNIOR
....."Baraboneun nunbit soge...Nunbit soge naneun machi...Naneun machi mwoe hollin nom"
..dying by looking at siwon's gesture...

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
-->>lOve sO swEEt~ARASHI
.....regret for loving someone???
..sweet song turns sad...isk3

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
-->>nEver sAy gOodbYe~MARIO & NESTY
.....ermm...maybe the fact that i can't say 'goodbye' when talking on the phone is something that can be considered funny...hehehe
..though this song is kinda sad..lol

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
-->>kiZunA~KAMENASHI KAZUYA
.....yatta!!kame-chan...

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
-->>fLavoUr oF liFe~UTADA HIKARU
.....remind me of tsukasa & tsukushi..
..sweet love story??hana yori dango..^-^

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
-->>dAite sEnyoriTa~YAMAPI
.......gomenasai...can't understand the song...
..i'm scared of yamapi???hahaha...kawaii!!!

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
-->>aI otsUka~PLANETARIUM
....another hanadan song...
.."kimi ga suki dayo"

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
-->>sEishun aMigo~KAME&YAMAPI
......ahhhhh....no comment...
..fyi, this song is from 'nobuta wo produce'...

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
-->>wiSh~ARASHI
.....too many wishes...it hurts if the wishes won't come true...

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
-->>lOve~JJANG NARA
....."it's gonna be another day with sunshine..."

WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO TAG?
---->>>>kina
---->>>>shikin
---->>>>nanny
---->>>>sarah

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.....at last...the longest 'tagged' ever.....
*dizzy*dizzy
..got to go to sleep..

-------------->>>>>THE SIXTH!!!!

-------->>>>been tagged^-^

1. Go to your photos folder in your computer.

2. Go to the 6th folder of photos.

3. Go to the 6th picture in that folder.

4. Put the picture on your blog and description of it.

hahaha...FYI, this is HEEBUM...heechul's most beloved cat...
until now i haven't got the chance to know its gender...
heebum's a present from heechul's fans...
heechul really loves his cat...
he once said in an interview:
"I don't go out often, I just raise my cat at home and drink with the kitty..Hehehe"
origin of heebum's name:
heechul+kibum=heebum
actually it has its own full name, but i forgot what it is...

5. Invite six friends to join the challenge.
sarah matsumoto
shikin
afzan
nikmah nino
nanny
nabeshid

6. Link them in your blog and let them know they have been challenged.

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so today, i cried...i've cried 'till my eyes puffy and sore,my head aches...
i'm not really a crybaby...
and only certain things can turn the 'crying switch' on...
but today, i really can't take it...
blame me for being such a 'spoilt' kid...
do NOT ask me why i cried...



-the end-

HEE...CHUL...

a few points which are impossible for heechul:

In future when he goes on broadcast, he won't speak a word
Feed Heebum on time and hug him with love
His famous smirk will be warmheartedly shown to everyone
Not teaching Hankyungie korean (especially vulgarities;;)
Do double-eyelid surgery
Not dancing to female singer's dances
Stop playing games
Going to church with Siwonie
Exercising

-taken from his cyworld's entry:

........Start exercising from now on (-0)
Now, if I look into the mirror, I am reminded of the Full Moon Bread which is my favourite snack during middle school
Following my zodiac.. Am I going to become a pig..

A few days ago when I went to Thailand..

Me: I'm exercising

Kyung & Donghae & Sungmin : (0_0)

....................................It's really like this (-0)
I shall become muscle man like Siwonie....

credit: Source: Heechul's Cyworld
Translation: Cinderella & carolyn @ SJ-WORLD

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i don't know why..but everytime i see this pic, i'm reminded of jaejoong..
it's really heechul though..

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ok so this is what happened yesterday...we've planned to go to ts..so we all agreed to go at 9a.m. sharp..i told su the night before that to not forget to wake me up at 8..and so she did..she messaged me 5minutes before 8..so much for an early 'wake up call'...but i only got out of bed 20minutes after..haha..my bed,my pillow,my teddy..they all love me so,so,so much..couldn't let me go..

..so at 9, i've finished dressing and all, i messaged kina asking her whether she's ready or not..10minutes passed...no reply..then i tried calling her...couldn't get through..fine.i went to her room and knocked..okay..she's not ready yet...hahaha...i won this time...yatta!!!!
----kina-chan,honto gomenasai...kekeke

.....so then, after succeeding boarding the bus in the heavy rainfall, we arrived at midvalley..this was not our main destination though..we stopped here just to eat the so-long waiting 'jangjamyun'...we ordered one each(which we regret it later)...the jangjamyun arrived at our table..so we were like, 'uwah..'
...not really halfway into eating, we were all like staring into each other faces..the bowl was really big..and our tummies were not really that 'huge'...su was the 1st winner..she gave up..i'm not sure why, but my appetite was unbelieveably 'huge'...i sort of like finished it in the end..haha
-----win again!!

..so our next stop was ts...we bought some things and then su treat us ice cream..yay!!
we each got a 'chocotop'..too bad they don't sell 'chocogd'...really want to try it...hahaha
---arigato su..

...okay, so that's it..our short journey yesterday...
----'we'->me,su,kina>>>>the 'evil' triangle...kekeke

p/s:..when i look at my hands today, i feel like crying..there're tiny red spots everywhere..mosquitoes' bites...argh...i hate mosquitoes...i hate cfs' mosquitoes..stupid 'fogging'..it didn't give any effect at all..just the 'stinky' smell..urghh...