free time!!

baking!!!
i really love baking, except that i'm no good at it...
first time i baked a cake, i'm pretty sure it was a failure...eventhough my mom tried to convince me that it was somehow edible..yes!!it can be eaten, but who wants to eat a cake with a thick layer of dark-brownish crust when it's not even a chocolate cake!!
yeah, i was pretty upset at that time..then, i stopped wanting to try to bake..
well. i wanted to, but it's such a waste that when i do bake, and the end result is somehow un-appetizing, no one would wanted to eat my cake..
i'm just whining because before this, i was pretty sure that baking a cake is just a piece of cake...sounds like a pun??(haha..)
but now i respect those who are able to bake, either cookies, cakes, yummy cream puffs or anything else that have to do with the word 'baking'..

today i helped my mom in the kitchen..nothing much...just this and that..i can cook..but not too good at it..well, cooking certainly needs a lot of practice..and pratices are what i'm lacking right now..well, i don't want to cook at home because if i cook, then my mom will not cook...then, i can't eat my mom's food, which is one of the biggest reasons i excitedly come home every break that i've  got...i don't want to eat my own cooking..it just doesn't taste like home to me...but i do cook instant maggee myself..hehe

chocolate!!
everyone should love chocolate..they're tasty, yummy and a drug-free tranquilizer for humans...
i used to eat chocolate everyday..but lately, i'm trying to control myself from eating chocolate because, first my weight gain has became a problem, secondly, i spent too much money on chocolate alone...my body's metabolism has been a wreck ever since i've got to lay my hands on those sinful fattening cereals..it's not really cereals but i think i shouldn't elaborate more on this product as i might have given its name away..but it's wrecking my metabolism and made me put on weight visibly...i hate when people used to say that i was too skinny, but i hate it even more when people said i looked chubbier..they said it's good for me to have gained weight since i'm tall...apparently i'm not tall enough to support all this new meat???fat???
please excuse me for my random ranting..i know i'm quite a big eater sometimes..and food is not entirely responsible in this disaster of mine..i've became lazy these few months..i hardly went to any recreational activities or did any sports, let alone went jogging..
i wanted to, but time, places and people are my biggest obstacles right now..

well,these are pretty random words i managed to spill out for today...
just trying to keep this blog alive...feels like killing it already but i managed to think it over..it's not wrong to keep it like it is...though i never seem to find time to write in it...

that's all...