A very short one

       It's been months since my last post and I admit that time really flew extremely fast as now it's reaching the end of the year already. Good year? Well, it's kinda debatable. I've been getting all these new feelings, and done quite a shitty job at managing them, things broken and thrown away. Some people left and new people came by. For those who left without goodbye, I sincerely wish them well and never to come back again. Everybody's changing and there's no stopping to what they'd become. Some breaks your heart, and some just throw it away. All the same, it's been a challenging year, boring as usual, but I hope I've learnt lots of things.  

p/s: Why bother to get something when you'll throw it away in the end?

New Year's Resolutions

So here's few important guidelines to set your new year's resolutions, if you haven't have any.

1) Measure up
2) Move more
3) Eat well
4) Read more
5) Work harder
6) Enjoy life

I've got mine, alright. But not quite done. ^^

It may have been not a big deal for some, but hey, it doesn't hurt to revise your life once per year. And don't get religious over this matter too, because as I've said before it's not a big deal.

That's all..

First random post in 2013^-^

So it's a new year already.Time really flies and I'm aging beautifully(??).Just kidding.LOL

Sometimes I think it's really hard to be a girl.I always have trouble with my girlfriends.No matter when and where,they're the ones who filling my head with all these sorts of troubling things.Girls always have friends problems.There will always be issues, unspoken hard feelings, and of course, the infamous gossipping.I often assume that people have their own principles and I totally respect their stands, but they're just too much sometimes.Getting on my nerves is one thing, being ignorant about it is what makes me snapped.I like the people around me, really I do, it's just that I wish they can be less annoying.I also know that I'm not that easy to be around with, but I really tried to be as pleasant, and sadly less myself, as I could.Writing this down is not easy, and it's upsetting to see all of these in words, because it makes them look real and bad.I'm not a really good person, I know.But, it's much better than people who think they're good persons, because they see no room for improvement in themselves.I know making all these assumptions are bad,hey,this post has been bad enough till this point, please forgive me though.I just want to nag at someone at this moment.

That's some awkward topic.But yeah, wth.I just wanted to get that out of my system without really shoving it into anyone's face.

It's a new year,so let's start fresh.No ill feelings, no rotten talkings behind people's backs.Starts all anew.Leave all those trashy feelings behind.

And Hernandez just scored against Wigan.He's been excellent last year and I guess he'll do much better this year.

I'm so random.^^

That's all..Happy 2013!!

Harimau Malaya

     So Malaysia lost to Singapore today. But I totally not expecting 3-0. Those boys have to work harder next time. Or should we say the goalkeeper should pull out his head from the honeymoon cloud he's in. Come on, that was just ridiculous. The ball just flew right past him. Urghh. Needless to say, the third goal was absolutely unnecessary. But well, they should step their play up a few notches if they want to win this thing. At least if they want to advance further in the game. And Rajagobal should not be making promises that his minions couldn't actually keep. Sorry,just bitching. Anyway, go Malaysia!!
And since when did they change HarimauMalaya to HarimauMalaysia? As of now, they're just lil' cuddly tigers, who forget how to use their claws.

They should be more like this.

That's all...

It's Just An Obsession

     I'm on a short break. I don't want to talk about exams. They're kind of revolting as of now. They turn me off. Just stop thinking, for God's sake!!

     Okay,that was soo unnecessary.Please forgive my outburst.

Good news!! My weight has been constant for these past few weeks. No crazy readings so far.
Bad news!! It's 2 kg heavier than I used to be.

     Yes, I know skinny or fat is very subjective. And please don't ask people around you whether you're fat or not. They're just saying what they think you want to hear the most. "What are you talking about?You're as thin as a toothpick!". I never bought that kind of replies. I don't blame them though. It's either they don't really care about you, or they're just being nice friends. I hope for the latter. And yeah, you're saying "Do I look fat?", "Oh my God, I'm getting fatter!", "Look at all these fats, they keep sticking to my body like magnets!", are actually pain in the arse. Your friends may be sick of your incessant whinings and some may actually feel offended. No offense intended here. This thing applies to me in full package. I am whiny and has constant obsession about my weight. In my defense, I didn't actually whine that I'm fat, I just said that I look fat, or I'm getting fatter. Those held very different meanings okay. But all the same I admit that I am actually kind of a pain in the arse. Poor my friends??0_o More like poor me. 

     Losing weight is nice actually. Your body feels lighter and no more carrying around extra baggage here and there. My personal record of losing weight is 5 kg in a week. I was exercising like mad man before bed, after classes, not in the morning though *because I quite always have just enough time to get ready for classes. It paid off splendidly. By the end of the week, I was 5 kg lighter, back to my previous weight. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I only tried to lose those 5 kg because I gained 5 kg the months before. All because of that stupid cereals. 

     However, losing too much weight in a short period of time is actually not good. Well, some say that you'll gain just as much soon, and some say that there might be something wrong with your body. You might have diabetes, or cancer, or hyperthyroidism. Just saying. I never actually thought of these losing weight issues in this perspective, but I met a doctor recently who enlightened me about these whole deathly illnesses thingy. I'm sure she just want to scare away weight-loser maniac like myself. 

     This update wasn't supposed to be about my weight. But it did anyway. So boring. I probably should get another life*that was the most inappropriate thought for today. I really should slap myself.

It's fun being a woman. We have so much superfluous worries^^

That's all...

It's A Date!!

So yesterday I had another 'date' with my brother.lol..Technically I was accompanying him to enjoy his last day of holiday.He was fussing about having to start school on Monday,thus I asked him to go out for some shopping and movie..Well,we did watch a movie.The Expendables 2! The funny thing before we bought the tickets was that the movie is actually rated -18,and my brother has a year left to reach that age>_< He doesn't look underage though,but still he was freaking out a bit when we were about to buy the tickets. So funny. Lol..But everything went smoothly at the counter,the guy didn't even bother to check our i.ds.Of course,we look mature enough to even be mistaken as a couple.Hilarious:)) Haha:)))) The movie was great.I love the line-ups and the story's dynamic.It's easy and very light.No mushy love scenes or anything like that.Though at one part I suddenly felt like I'm watching The Avengers all over again.Huuu.So many heroic figures in one story.I love it!! We have 'Rambo','Terminator',the Die Hard dude 'John McClane'.:) Okay,okay,so it wasn't those characters who appeared in this movie,just the guys who acted them.But,yeah.It was a rather cool movie,not the coolest ever I mind youXD And if you want to understand the characters more,you have to watch the first movie of course.Jet Li appeared so little in this second one,and Arnie,I tell you,he was making the audiences to crack up with his punch line.You know,the whole terminator thingy.He appeared in the beginning of the movie and emerged as a hero at the end of it. *random Bruce:Consider it as a gift. Sylvester:That thing should belong in a museum. Arnie:We all are. Big LOL for that.:))) That's all..

Majestic Ramadhan

Ramadhan is almost over.Time has flown so fast that I'm almost afraid to face tomorrow.Have I done as much 'Ibadah as I can in this majestic month of Ramadhan? Truthfully, I really can't say 'yes' to that question.There's so much things that I could have done but I let the time passed by.I'm not regretting but I just wish that I will be a much better person in the future.Hopefully,there will be another Ramadhan.Amin..
Just to reminisce our Ramadhan this year; I love this song,Hikmah Ramadhan,performed by Rabbani.

Selamat Hari Raya everyone:)
Maaf zahir batin..

That's all...

Shopping spree!!

Tired,exhausted..A day-long shopping spree with Karamah..It's been lots of fun..We practically tried every shoe in the shops..And it was fruitful..I bought a pair and she also bought a pair for herself..It would be impossible not to since we have raided every shoe rack in every shop in the malls..Mission partially accomplished^^ Tomorrow will be another shopping trip, but with my lil' brother this time..He wanted to buy  some jacket or something..And I get to do another window-shopping, and hopefully I'll get to find things I wanted to buy..Ahh,I guess I can wear the blouse I bought today for tomorrow's trip..:p

That's all..

Fondant Garden

Fondant Garden! So as the name suggests, it's something to do about cake of course..:) Yay! I love cakes.One of the reason I watched this drama. Not yet finished watching, but I've watched the ending, lol. Happy ending of course. Typical Taiwanese drama. I've guessed the story flow correctly, which is no surprise; the heroine met the second hero first, 'fell in love at first sight', then came the first hero. So cliche. Well, cliche or not, Taiwanese dramas are where you would find total cuteness from the beginning till the end. The story's cute, the actresses are cute, small, petite, the kind of girls I love to watch the most. Oops, don't get me wrong. I meant that sentence in a totally not-perverted kind of way okay. I'm no cute and small myself, so I like watching small,petite girls because they look soo cute, which I must admit that I envy sometimes. So, back to this drama, Park Jung Min acted in this drama. He's from  the boyband,SS501 and the reason I found this cute drama. Well, I was kind of stalking him, then I found out that he acted in a Taiwanese drama which has just finished airing in June this year. I've got too much time in my hand. And he's got pretty eyes and he's pretty psychotic himself; the kind I like the most. Please don't judge me. -_- And one of my favourite actor, Kingone Wang! Haha.. He acted in dramas like this a lot, and he's always the second guy. The guy which fell in love with the heroine but rejected at last. Cliche. lol. But this kind of character suits him. Cool,charismatic, kind and of course handsome. In this drama, he acted as stepbrother to Park Jung Min. He's kind of elligitimate son of Jung Min's father. And Jung Min was half-Taiwanese,half-Korean because his mother was Korean. That's why they spoke two languages in this drama. Sometimes Hangul, sometimes Mandarin. Well, I didn't know much about the actresses, it seems like they're not really well-known, but adorable nevertheless. 

And I love the theme song of this drama. So cute:)

Romantic comedy. The kind which never fails to put a smile to your face.. lol

That's all...

Our highway is NOT an F1 circuit

I went out with my brother yesterday to do some shopping. *I'm convinved that I don't have anymore interesting clothes to wear anymore>_< tehee..:p
Then, on my way there, there was a police car speeding past us. At first, I was a little scared that the police was after my car. It was a highway, a quite empty one at that, so of course, I drove like an F1 racer*according to my brother:). Then, after quite some time we reached at a roundabout. I was curious to why the traffics seemed so slow, then I realised that there was an accident there and the police car we saw earlier was actually rushing to the scene. The ambulance was not there yet, since I saw there was a guy covered in blood, just saw the face, lying on the ground. And of course, there were lots of 'caring' spectators standing around, idling, not knowing what to do. I bet the guy was still alive at that time because people actually put an umbrella there to shield him from the sunlight. Well, from my experience of witnessing these kind of accidents, if the guy is dead, they would cover him with something, cloths or anything. I also noticed that there was another guy sitting on the road, facing the lying guy, which I assumed his friend. Maybe they rode together.

Honestly, I think motorcycle is very dangerous, either on its own or with other vehicles. I've lost count on how many times I saw or heard about accidents involving motorcycles. Yes, I'm aware that not all motorcycle riders ride recklessly. But, some are just pain in the arse. There's thousands of times when I got chill and nearly have a heart attack when I'm driving because of them. Yeah, after all, all that's matter is whether we ride it safely or not. I guess car drivers also have lots of accidents. It's just that I think if all people drive carefully, respect the law, and tolerate each other, accidents like these can be prevented. It saddens me when I witness an accident, especially when it involves motorcycle. Our life is precious not just to ourselves, but also to others who care deeply for us.

And by the way, if any of you reading ever come to Malacca, be careful of the two roundabouts at the Batu Berendam roadway. They're kind of dangerous. I've seen two accidents already this year when I was passing there. I pray to God that none would happen in the future, but yeah, be extra careful okay.

 

p/s: I'm really pissed off if I saw people talking on their handphones while driving, or sms-ing. Come on, pull over or something, or just wait till you reach your destinations. Or, use the freaking bluetooth headset if the call is really important. For me, I usually put on the loudspeaker. Easy and not distracting. Or, I just let the call into voicemail.:p

Fun time in Kidzania!!

Have you ever heard about Kidzania? Well, it's sort of a themepark for kids which is currently opened in Kuala Lumpur. It's been opened since February this year if I'm not mistaken, and specifically it is located in the Curve NX, Mutiara Damansara. Everyone knows where the Curve is right? Or you just have to know where Ikea Mutiara Damansara is. Basically they're calling it an educational themepark for kids, and apparently, it's kind of a 'mini city' where kids can have an interactive learning and real-life experiences, while having fun of course.

So, what is Kidzania really? The first Kidzania was opened in Mexico City in 1999,if I'm not mistaken, by its founder Xavier Lopez. There's also Kidzania in other countries such as Kidzania Jakarta in Indonesia, Kidzania Tokyo and Kidzania Koshien in Japan, Kidzania Seoul in Korea, and a few others.

In Kidzania, it seems like they speak in different language such as "Zee you" which means 'see you'. It also has its own currency that is called Kidzos, which will be used to pay for goods and services in this 'mini city'. There are 'real' facilities provided like CIMB bank, AirAsia,KPJ Healthcare and others which serve as to let the children experience and learn realistically. Here also, kids can experience variety of role-playing; nurses, surgeons, pilots, polices, lawyers, and many others.

So, these are pictures from my beloved niece and nephew's visit to this fun-filled Kidzania. I rip them off from my sis-in-law's fb.^^

First of all, let's check in into Kidzania..

Then, they opened bank accounts and got the Kidzos..

The Kidzos..

So, the adventures begin..The map..

At KPJ nursery..Learning to handle baby..

Painting time!!Two promising artists in the studio^^

Doing manicure at the beauty saloon..Boy also does manicure?lol

Face painting..According to my sis-in-law, "Mahal woo..".huhu

So, final touch up..Picking jewellery!!Here the kids can make their own jewelleries. My niece made a nice bracelet by the way^^

Actually,there's lots more activities that they did that day, such as joining in a performance, and many others. Yes, personally I think it's really fun for the kids. For adults, just wait for your kids okay. The age range for entrance is 3 to 14 years old. And the kids have to be accompanied by adults to enter.

These are the tickets pricing:
Toddler (3 y/o and below) - RM35(MyKad n Non-MyKad)

Child (4-14 y/o) - RM55(MyKad)/RM75(Non-MyKad)

Adult - RM35(MyKad)/RM55(Non-MyKad)

Senior Citizen - RM30(MyKad n Non-MyKad)

The ticket..

Check this out okay if you have little sisters or brothers or children in general..Really worth it.

For us, adults, let's wait for LEGOLAND to open. Haha..It's not conclusively for adults only like other themeparks, but yeah it's certainly not something like Kidzania. It also emphasizes on children's entertainment, but it's more family-friendly. I've been hearing that it will be opened on September,15th. Sadly, I can't go right away since the term has started. But well, it's something to be looking forward to when I have a break next time. Lucky for me, my sister lives in JB. So....haha..hopefully she'll support the ticket. It's around RM140 or something if I'm not mistaken. Yay for LEGOLAND!! Ahh, by the way, Legoland is located in Johor Bharu, not KL okay. I've seen the place when we were passing through there recently, it's huge!! And it certainly looks fun.

That's all...

I did turn off the AIR-CONDITIONER

  I'm freezing.No, it's not raining or snowing outside(snow??almost impossible in our country la kn..) Rather than staying outside,enjoying the warmth of the sun, I chose to be inside, with the air-conditioner turned on. I know it's bad actually to be in an air-conditioned room throughout the day, my skin gets dry and wrinkly, and I happen to sneeze more than once in a day. Plus,there's the shivering factor, and the urge to go to the bathroom though I don't even consume anything (ewww,not a very pleasant topic). My mom always tell me to shut it off during the day or whenever I'm not in the room. But, I'm too lazy to do that. Hey, I just want to go outside for a couple of minutes. No need to turn it off and on right. 
    
     However, that's a very bad habit. You see, we, should conserve the energy. And air-conditioner for once, uses up a lot of energy. The colder your room is, the more energy is actually consumed by this wonderful man-refrigerator.But, of course we want to turn it on all the time, considering that we live in Malaysia, where hot weather is inescapable. Turning it on and off is also not a great choice, because air-conditioner and a few other home devices, such as refrigerators, freezers, furnaces, they actually have large motors, thus they require a large amount of power when the motor first start. Therefore, we can say that it needs a lot of energy to be turned on. I think the best way is we turn it on during the night, have it off during the day. Well, if the day is hot enough, turning it on for a few hours would not be bad.

     Or...we can use the conventional way, back to the basic, the equally wonderful spinning blades, that we call fan. There are ceiling fans, standing fans, sitting fans??, from the ten-bladed fans to the commonest 3-bladed fans. So, it's fine actually if we do not use the air-conditioner. Be real, we are in a hot weathered country. A little warmth wouldn't hurt right.. Although people actually call me 'puteri lilin'. haha.. I couldn't help it, since I tend to easily sweat. Guess my metabolism is rather high..:)

By the way, I've turned off the air-conditioner already. My parents just got home. lol

That's all..

What I found on Youtube:p

     So, I've just find out about this youtuber girl, Ainan Tasneem.Well, I've read that she's already got a recording album.But, point is I found her on youtube. She's like the next Najwa Latiff or Yuna or something, though it's kind of unjustified for her to say that because someone said that she's been around even before Najwa Latiff got popular. So, obviously she's aiming to be an artist, not the artsy artist, a celebrity to be exact. No comment on that, period. However, her songs are catchy, so it's good I think. And she's kind of cute too. And young. It's just one thing that irks me is that if I'm not mistaken, she's currently enrolled in a local university, so obviously she's not stupid. Then, why does she want to be a singer. I would rather spend my life with books and classes, than being surrounded by people who talks in 'a,e,i,o,u' language. Maybe that's her dream. No, that doesn't justified anything. Things we always wanted to do are not always the right things to do. So, maybe this is not about this Ainan anymore.. lol... Sorry Ainan, got to have something for the eye opener and I happened to stumble upon her last night. And she's cute. Did I just say that again?lol
Pretty random stuff I know...But she's quite worth to check out.:)

   I'm still alone today. I didn't do much, just laze around and counting the stars. I cooked a very weird dish for my 'berbuka' and it didn't surprise me one bit. I definitely will categorize myself as people who knows how to cook, but I tend to cook very differently from others. Let's just say I'm too creative when I'm cooking. I used common ingredients but in a very unique way. It's a good thing that I'm always manage to eat my own cooking because I certainly don't have any courage to serve it to others. Nevermind though because if I'm cooking for others, my dishes extraordinarily become normal and plain. Wow, I guess I do cheated a lot. Not a compulsive liar, but maybe I do have a pretty compulsive behaviour in certain things.

    I have no idea what to cook for tomorrow 'sahur'. My lil' brother seems to decide that he finally wants to eat rice during 'sahur'. If he wants rice, of course I have to prepare the side dishes. I've cooked chicken this morning, so maybe I should just cook chicken eggs for tomorrow?? The simplest dish ever, scrambled eggs or omelette. Yes, I think that will do it.

   

     I haven't sleep at night for 2 days in a row already. Not even a second. I can only sleep when the clock finally showed 8 or 9 a.m. Then, 2-3 hours later I have to get up right? The day still goes on and I have lots of things to do, like house chores. Speaking of that, my parents will be back tomorrow. And I haven't done a thing that I've planned to do during their absence. All thanks to these sleepless nights. I woke up, do a little this and that, then I shut down again. The whole thing keeps repeating all throughout the day. Miraculously, when the sun set, I found myself more energized than ever. Like that energizer bunny. Maybe I am sick. Whatever, I'll try to sleep tonight. No promises though.

That's all..

It's Ramadhan again:)

     It's the second day of Ramadhan.I'm home alone but surprisingly I'm not bored yet.Well, I do have this wonderful invention called the 'internet' and of course my beloved lappy.So, life's good as far as I'm concerned.There's a few chores I haven't done yet assigned by my beloved mother.I'll get it done before Tuesday (my parents will be home on Tuesday evening or night).No worry. There's only one thing that troubles me; what to make of sahur tomorrow. Luckily my little brother, well he's not that little anymore(he does weigh more than me!!), has a habit of not eating rice during sahur. Yay!!At least i don't have to really cook. Just scrambled eggs or bread with a cup of steaming hot Milo will do. Seriously, I have full respect for my mom. Imagine waking up at 4 a.m. to cook. Yes, I so can do that, but i prefer not to. In my case, I can skip the whole waking up thing, because I'm positive that I haven't sleep yet at that time or a few hours after that.

    Oh yeah, I've this disturbing teeny,tiny problem called insomnia back. Well, it's a lot better now, compared to 2-4 weeks ago. I swear one day I practically freaked out when I found that my brain wasn't functioning properly. Seriously, I couldn't even calculate the simplest mathematical problem such as 3+4. I realized this when I was at a counter to pay for the food. My head went blank when I started to get my money to pay, I couldn't decipher how many one ringgit note should I give for RM7.40!! Yeah, it's easy for me now, obviously I have to hand over 8 one ringgit notes. But, at that time, I was like 4 year old all over again. A 4 year old doesn't know how to deal with money yet right?

   That's all..

more random post^^

i'm on my one-week holiday..i should be studying but i've spent the whole day surfing the internet..i'm bored..lol..but then, i stumbled upon this movie,it's kind of old, and it happened to be a sad story..well, the main character died at the end,it's not really surprising because i've already knew from the beginning he was going to die..it's kind like a spoiler 'cause i've read the summary way before..unfortunately, knowing that the character would be dead by the end of the movie is something deadly for me..i was crying from the beginning until the end..it's because i know that whatever the character was doing, he couldn't help but to be dead in the end..that's why i hate watching stories where the main character died at the end..i'll get upset very badly..thank god the movie only last about one and a half hour, and more importantly, no one was at home at that time except for me..i'm really weak with sad stories..oh, it's not a love story, fyi..

i've a teeny, tiny little problem right now..i've been dodging lots of calls and mails lately..well, isn't that what i do all the times??lol..so, these calls and mails came and i solidly ignored them..it's kind of a bitchy thing to do i know, but i really wish they would stop..seriously, if i didn't even return their messages, do they think that i would answer their calls???looks like somebody needs a life..it's tiring to think about these things..i certainly have enough things to worry about..can't they see how messed up myself is..it's better if they stay away from me..i warn you, do not poke the sleeping bear..

just random update^^
that's all..

obnoxious much -_-

i've got to go back to my university tomorrow..feeling melancholic..-_-
really wish tonight could be longer..it's the one and only time i wish time would stop and i could stay in this moment forever..well, forever might be pushing it a little..but it's just quite not possible right...i never say it's impossible because my mum always say that nothing is impossible in God's hand..

it's always like this when the time comes for me to go back to college, school...it's always been like this..
i would be sulking, looking all sad and my mum would be so careful as to cheer me up..i'd always feel bad for it, but i can't help myself either..i am sad,and yes, i am sulking (i know it's childish..but i wish to remain a child even if only at heart..i know i looked old enough to be called 'obasan'..lol)

a friend of mine said that i'm kind of an anti-social..it's really shocking to hear that from her because i've always thought that i'm sociable enough..yes, it's true that i don't really like to attend a gathering, not a small one, but more like big 'big' gathering, like 'family day'..i don't think we need a 'family day' to be a family..anti-social much??not really..i like socializing with people..well,at least that's what i think..big gathering 'sucks' because it sucks a lot of energy from me..smiling, talking, laughing, all those require me to think...thinking consumes a lot of energy...that's why whenever there's gathering, there would be food provided..to help us replenish our energy.. all those things about 'silaturrahim', of course i'm aware of them..in fact, i know how important it is to us humans..it's just how i wish 'bonding' with others could be a lot easier..

okay, back to what my friend was saying, she also happened to say that i tend to attract lots of people's interests..but i somehow failed to response to them..so in a simpler word, i tend to be a bit cold..maybe i didn't smile wide enough or my smile didn't quite reach them that made me look a lil' bit 'unfriendly'..it also could be due to the fact that i don't really meddle into people's affairs..i hardly ever ask people about their families or touch on personal things..i do what i do because i've always thought that it's kind of rude to ask people about their personal life..i don't mind people asking about mine but i prefer if they don't dig too deep..i won't talk if i'm not asked..but don't get me wrong..i love talking so much!!more than anyone could ever imagine..but with certain people..

i hardly feel out of place eventhough i'm with people that i'm not used to..i can mingle with them like they're my friends from since i was in diapers..superficial relationships huh..it's really unintentional..please do forgive me..:(

enough with my 'twisted' life..

i actually found the book which i treasured so much when i was a kid..i don't remember how did i get my hands on this book, but i remembered it really well that i loved this book so much..i was reading it from page to page for almost zillion times...the book's called "Friends are forever,featuring poems by Susan Polis Schutz and Donna Fargo"..well,there's lots more other poets featured in this book..

so i'll end my entry with this poem;

Some people will be your friend because of whom you know

Some people will  be your friend because of your position

Some people will be your friend because of the way you look

Some people will be your friend because of your possessions

But the only real friends are the people who will be your friends because they like you for how you are inside

Thank you for being one of the very few people in my life who is a real friend 

                                                                                                   -Susan Polis Schutz

that's all..hv a good day minna-san:)

accident could happen when u least expected it:P

i fell into a drain today..scratched myself pretty badly...the wounds still sting as i'm writing this now..not really anyone's fault..the drain just happen to be there...and i just happen to put my foot into it and fell down disgracefully..it's pathetic to whine over it as i'm already 21 years old, so i decided to be cool about it and pretended like it doesn't hurt at all..the truth is, i felt like crying at first..hoohoo...well, it's me who got hurt, and since i love myself the most, it's really upsetting to be in this situation..

my morning has became chaotic as my dearest two nieces come to visit suddenly...their mother is at work and thus once again i become the 'unpaid' nanny...whatever, love them both though they're so naughty...it's a bit of their fault that i fell into the drain earlier...hahaha...but i don't mind...they're just kids afterall...

that's all...

free time!!

baking!!!
i really love baking, except that i'm no good at it...
first time i baked a cake, i'm pretty sure it was a failure...eventhough my mom tried to convince me that it was somehow edible..yes!!it can be eaten, but who wants to eat a cake with a thick layer of dark-brownish crust when it's not even a chocolate cake!!
yeah, i was pretty upset at that time..then, i stopped wanting to try to bake..
well. i wanted to, but it's such a waste that when i do bake, and the end result is somehow un-appetizing, no one would wanted to eat my cake..
i'm just whining because before this, i was pretty sure that baking a cake is just a piece of cake...sounds like a pun??(haha..)
but now i respect those who are able to bake, either cookies, cakes, yummy cream puffs or anything else that have to do with the word 'baking'..

today i helped my mom in the kitchen..nothing much...just this and that..i can cook..but not too good at it..well, cooking certainly needs a lot of practice..and pratices are what i'm lacking right now..well, i don't want to cook at home because if i cook, then my mom will not cook...then, i can't eat my mom's food, which is one of the biggest reasons i excitedly come home every break that i've  got...i don't want to eat my own cooking..it just doesn't taste like home to me...but i do cook instant maggee myself..hehe

chocolate!!
everyone should love chocolate..they're tasty, yummy and a drug-free tranquilizer for humans...
i used to eat chocolate everyday..but lately, i'm trying to control myself from eating chocolate because, first my weight gain has became a problem, secondly, i spent too much money on chocolate alone...my body's metabolism has been a wreck ever since i've got to lay my hands on those sinful fattening cereals..it's not really cereals but i think i shouldn't elaborate more on this product as i might have given its name away..but it's wrecking my metabolism and made me put on weight visibly...i hate when people used to say that i was too skinny, but i hate it even more when people said i looked chubbier..they said it's good for me to have gained weight since i'm tall...apparently i'm not tall enough to support all this new meat???fat???
please excuse me for my random ranting..i know i'm quite a big eater sometimes..and food is not entirely responsible in this disaster of mine..i've became lazy these few months..i hardly went to any recreational activities or did any sports, let alone went jogging..
i wanted to, but time, places and people are my biggest obstacles right now..

well,these are pretty random words i managed to spill out for today...
just trying to keep this blog alive...feels like killing it already but i managed to think it over..it's not wrong to keep it like it is...though i never seem to find time to write in it...

that's all...

worthless.

I could not even begin to describe how much i dislike coffee..and its associates..

My day is practically ruined,although it's just 9.40 in the morning..it's all because of the aromatic coffee smell,which i hated the most,that woken me up this morning..why do i have to wake up to the smell i've been always avoiding the most and thanks to it,a nice stressful headache..

Also because of this,my head's practically in the cloud during the class today..

I officially declare coffee as my most hated nemesis as of today..

It's not that i wanted to hate coffee,but coffee makes my head ache..

and another thing that worsen my headache-the smell of ointment which much to my surprise,girls like to use the most;"minyak cap kapak"..

That's all my complaints of the day..

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i loved you too

So many thoughts,
I don't know where to begin,
I'll start from my heart,
and what I feel within.

I still have feelings,
which haven't changed,
because when you left me
my life was re-arranged.

I used to cry
so many times a day,
but lately those tears
have been fading away.

I am hoping that
my brighter day soon will come,
and maybe, just maybe,
I'll find that special someone.

Yes, it's been hard,
but I'm getting back my life,
I've even managed
to put away the knife.

I will find someone
who's right for me,
who loves me
and lets me be all I can be.

Yet the thought of you and her,
is tearing me apart,
because you will always have a special place
in my broken heart.

Do I still love you?
Yes, I do,
but another part of me
is getting over you.

I never thought I would say this,
but I simply have to confess,
with each and every day that goes by,
I love you less and less.

I just wanted to be with you,
but now you're gone,
and the time has come
for me to move on.

You meant so much to me,
in fact, you still do,
from the bottom of my heart,
I loved you too.

credit: this is NOT mine..just sharing it for fun...